okay. chem is really killing me. and i cant afford to fail chem cos
1. i can feel it in my fingers and toes and bones that i failed chem spa already
2. I FREAKIN GO FOR CHEM TUITION and WHO THE HELL GOES FOR TUITION AND STILL FAILS. okay me. like for math. BUT STILL. this is chem.
i am only supposed to fail physics (which im not taking) so technically i shouldnt be failing any science at all! ha. ha. i dont think so. i am pissed off with mole concept. VERY.
i really dont know whats wrong with me.
i will revise chem and only chem for the rest of tonight and attempt to actually understand what's going on.
sometimes putting in effort isn't enough. and that sucks. but at least i know i tried. i'm getting more positive after reading chicken soup for the teenage soul. somehow the stories there are pretty inspiring for a tired, fed up teen who's bloody sick of hellish sec three life. i dont know how much longer im going to last. i have this sinking feeling that i really have no future. seriously, other than education (which, in my case, is gradually derailing), i have absolutely no niche or talent or whatever. talk about talentless. i dont know if i even can make it to jc la. and then even if i struggle there, i might not be able to get into uni, cos i read this news report recently about the increasing number of applicants and the huge number of disappointments. i might really just end up sweeping the roads or working at macdonalds night shifts.
sigh. i'll take one step at a time. right now, chem chem chem.