I'm sitting in front of the computer typing this with a black uncomfortable sticky blackhead remover plastered on my nose. I blame my mum. She coaxed me into doing this by pointing out that my nose is spotted all over with ugly blackheads and that I should take more responsibility for my skin. Fine. Except now my nose is feeling immensely itchy and i cant rip it off till 15 minutes is up. Sigh. My sister screamed upon seeing me with that thing on my nose. Talk about overreacting. I don't look THAT warped.

Today was interesting I guess. We went back to school for Specs course preparation. Sir Benedict briefed us on what will be tested and what to prepare. Then we went out for platoon lunch. We went to food republic but failed to find an empty table that could fit the whole platoon. Hence under the persuasion of Jas, we went to taka to find a place to eat. We ended up at yoshinoya, but not all of us sat at the same table in the end. I mean, consider the possibilities of a troop of 10 plus girls actually sitting together at a table and eating at some fast food restaurant. Then something highly interesting happened. Which I will not elaborate on. I can just picture it like some gossipgirl scene. girls, get your cellphone cameras ready...

Spotted (or suspected rather): Person A and Person B keeping a secret

ah well. today was good platoon bonding time (:

In the end under tiffy's persuasion we watched a movie instead of going straight home to sleep which was my initial plan. We watched Made of Honour. Its nice really, in the happy ending chick flick way. At least until we started to have absurd thoughts about the two main characters not being the two main characters. Oh well.


I demand an explanation. How are holidays considered holidays when people like me go back to school practically every day? GAH. this has to be the most packed holiday ever. and I haven't even started on PTs, preparing for specs, brushing up on Math and Bio and CHEM. GOSH. i am like a fish slapping around dejectedly, thrashing about violently and hopelessly on the riverbank and the water looks miles away. okay i don't know how come i thought of that analogy but its pretty apt.

I AM HOPING AND WISHING ON THE FIRST STAR I SEE TONIGHT that LIM EEWEN had the SENSE to print out her total defence 5 aspects on white paper before cutting and then pasting on the coloured paper. Since i cannot contact her via MSN and i have not received a reply via sms, i resort to the supernatural. Oh mighty star above, please shine your light on eewen's brain and signal very obviously to her to NOT PRINT IT STRAIGHT ON THE COLOURED PAPER. PLEASE print on WHITE paper first then cut out. Keep shining dear star. If burning a hole in her skull is necessary to get the message across, just do it.

and back to total defence for me.
STAY AWAY FROM Singapore. we are TOTALLY DEFENDED.


holidays are officially in full swing but it somehow doesn't seem very holiday-ish. hmm. probably all the PTs and projects we have to do. I've been spending much of my time watching Gossip Girl and America's Next Top Model (yes, nan and marge, FINALLY).

I really am addicted to gossip girl. Warning: if you do not watch gg you will not comprehend the whole next chunk so SKIP. I started off not really liking Blair cos she's bitchy but as the plot developed i began to sympathise more with her, and how she's always in Serena's shadow. I like Serena too actually, cos she's always so radiant and confident and sure of herself. She's also really in love with Dan (: She deserves it and Dan deserves it more. I mean, the guy actually wrote a story about her when he was seven? He finally wins the babe and he deserves it after being invisible for so long. Nate is really getting on my nerves. He's indecisive about who he likes and I feel sorry for Blair cos she loves him. And Nate can't seem to take charge of his own life, not that he has a choice but still, he should know what exactly HE wants. Chuck was really gross and skanky (if you can describe a guy like that) at first, kept hooking up and sleeping with girls, and almost-raping some. But he's becoming more and more likeable now especially since he likes Blair now (: The thing i like about this show is that it isn't really as much of a bitch fest as I expected. Even though Blair and Serena might get into fights and all (eg. sleeping with the best friend's boyfriend? seriously, Serena. though i think Nate's at fault too) they care for each other and they need each other. They just seem to have this bond. And then there's Dan and Serena who are the spokespersons of opposites attract. very strongly. GG's a lot more emotional than I expected. okay enough gossipgirl

Today I went for math clinic with huiyi. Sigh. I sat with jovina and huiyi and tiffy and amanda chan popped by occasionally for a visit. Its amazing how one third of our platoon seems to be inept with regards to math. After math we went to meet eewen and jas for lunch at white sands, then eewen huiyi and i went to my house to do total defence scrapbook. I'm proud to announce that after a laborious 4 hours or so of work, we have finished our coverpage. And 5 aspects soft copy. sigh i know, we were distracted!

OHWELL we compiled a special list today in class
TODAY IS A SPECIAL DAY
1) Its KRISTIE WONG'S BIRTHDAY
hey krish sorry we couldn't celebrate hope you had a nice fifteenth birthday and i love ya (:

2) Person A took Person B on all by herself today. wonder how it went ;) a fresh new beginning eh?

3) [NOT VALID] hint: something written by huiyi about us being honoured by her presence. yknow, typical.

4) We found out that Eewen types Pasir Ris as Paris Ris. This was how the smses went

eew: can meet at paris ris mrt i dont know how to go to your house
me: okay meet you at eiffel tower
eew: huh? I wait for you at paris ris white sands
me: huh? don't want eiffel tower? okay meet at the louvre
eew: HELLO?!?!
me: you still don't get it do you

5) Its Miranda's first Math clinic lesson. joy.


okay. so cook won. when we found out during recess marge and nandi were DEVASTATED. i think archuleta should have won cos his performance on the final was better. And his voice is beautiful. Then again when i hear cook sing i think he deserves to win too cos he sings really well too. I'm such a confused, undecided, fickle fan. sigh. Thing is, they're two totally different styles and I LIKE BOTH. I agree with marge and nat they should have been split into two different seasons! okay enough american idol.
school today was pretty fun we watched videos in almost all the lessons. oh in history, we watched a documentary on French Revolution and there was this scene of this whaddayacallthat. the thing used to chop people's head off. yes anyway the blade was like gleaming and bloody and i keep seeing that image. ugh.
I went to math tuition, took mrt with eewen on the way there. We bumped into vivien and cheryl koh. Those two people are unbelievable. here's an extract of the conversation throughout the train journey.

me: [on root canal treatment] oh it doesnt hurt now cos i took painkillers. panadol.
vivien: ohhh. huh you put the panadol on your gum ah
me and eewen: UH NO?! who does that!
cheryl koh: why not. then how do you use the painkillers
eewen: you SWALLOW it?
me: and the medicine goes into your bloodstream
vivien: but that takes too long!
eewen: oh okay then you have stomachache you put panadol on your stomach ah?
me: you have headache you put panadol on your head?
all: LAUGH
vivien: eh maybe might work eh
eewen and me: UGH!

and then cos eewen got off pretty early i was left at the mercy of their self-proclaimed complicated minds. the pain of it. sigh.


okay you know what, i really don't mind whoever wins.
i started of really loving archuleta but cook kinda grew on me.
and he's not really cocky la. he just handles the situation in his style. so i really don't mind whoever wins. but cook seems to be not performing as well as archuleta. ohwell. its not like i get to vote. sad.


One word to describe root canal treatment -- OUCH
During the whole process it didnt hurt. more like ached. but maybe it was cos i was under anaesthaesia. I tell you my mouth was like numb for hours. Anyway Dr Chong gave me a jab (which did not hurt) and isolated my tooth. there was this rubber piece for me to bite onto and keep my mouth open, and this green sheet to cover the rest of the mouth. Okay hard to describe. First, she started drilling a hole in my tooth and it was rather worrying cos the sound that came out was vaguely similar to what you hear when drilling walls. Then she started cleaning it and disinfecting it with what she said was diluted bleach. "very good for killing bacteria!". mmhm. then i decided best was to close my eyes cos even though i couldn't feel or see anything going on in my mouth, i could see her holding up piece after piece of long sharp metal picks which she used to dig around in my tooth or something. Yes, very disturbing image. She had to measure the length of my tooth and ALL HER STICKS AND INSTRUMENTS WERE TOO SHORT. she told her nurse "hmm, pass me the long [name of instrument i cannot remember], the 20 cm one." RIGHT. turns out my tooth measured a whopping 2.4 cm. yes i have long teeth. then she went about doing what seemed like digging around inside my long tooth and disinfecting it with dilutd bleach. she noticed me staring at the sharp instruments warily and offerd me a mirror to see what's going on. i didnt exactly want to KNOW. but i politely held it up and took a peek. not very clear but not as gross as expected. anyway after the whole procedure i was thinking, hey that wasn't so bad! didn't hurt. THEN. i rinsed my mouth and after a while the anaesthaesia wore off. IT HURT SO BAD. its like LASTING and SHARP pain. never experienced this kind of pain before okay. i was like suddenly tearing and tearing non-stop. then the Dr. Chong was all :' oh, you poor thing it'll be over soon okay?' she gave ma another jab of anaesthetic which helped i guess, and 2 painkillers. I made my mum cab home cos i wasn't having a whole mrt carriage of people staring at me and wondering: that girl is so weird, mouth cannot close, tearing non-stop. but seriously it hurt a lot more than i expected. i went home in a foul mood, bathed and went straight to bed. thank goodness upon waking up, both the numbness and pain were gone. thank goodness for painkillers. Well i'm going back next wednesday for root canal treatment part II and let's just hope it doesnt hurt that much. filling the tooth shouldn't be painful. RIGHT?

and in the meanwhile i shall be entertained by the davids.

ARCHULETA FTW


OKAY.
today i had good news and bad news

THE GOOD
I AM GOING FOR SPECS AFTER ALL
screams!!! :D

Miss Goh: Miranda, you're going for specs course
Me: REALLY?! WHY
Miss Goh: No idea. but you are. get necessary info and documents from your pltnmates. [smiles and walks away]
Me: [stands at the classroom door stunned]

THE BAD
okay remember the toothache? yes i finally found out the cause. it was killing me the whole of today. panadol sustained me for a few hours but i was dying throughout tribune. there was this point it hurt so bad i was like tearing while editing our article. Chewlin told me to go see a dentist and i couldnt take it much longer anyway. Dr. Sakhar very kindly offered to give me a lift to wisma where my dentist is. My usual dentist wasn't around, hence as it was an 'emergency' they found another dentist for me. After a few checks and an x-ray, the dentist revealed the horrible truth:

Dr. Chong: So, Miranda, have you bitten on anything hard lately?
Me: Uh. I, ate crabs over the weekend?
Dr. : Well... it seems the crabs have done you in. You have a dead tooth my dear.
Me: [STUNNED AND SHOCKED]
Dr. : basically means your tooth has sustained some shock and the nerves are now dead. When faced with this, you have two choices. First, you can extract the whole tooth. (i turned the shade of my teeth). Don't worry, that's the prehistoric method. Now with modern science, we can use root canal treatment.

that's basically slicing off the top of my tooth, removing the dead nerves inside and crowning it with fake enamel. sounds absolutely painful. 'don't worry i'll give you a jab beforehand so you'll be under anaesthaesia. absolutely painless' still, dentists are not to be trusted. before i put on braces my orthodontist told me 'you will experience some discomfort the first few days'. well, i couldnt eat or talk properly for up till a week.

sigh. i absolutely CAN'T WAIT for my tooth operation.


i should be sleeping.
but i forgot to wish everyone a
HAPPY VESAK DAY
and just to commemorate here are nice quotes from Buddha:

A jug fills drop by drop.

The only real failure in life is not to be true to the best one knows.

You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe deserve your love and affection.

In the sky, there is no distinction of east and west; people create distinctions out of their own minds and then believe them to be true.

Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned.

Happy Vesak Day everyone


retail therapy and a huge bar of chocolate helps

thanks to all of you who have given me much encouragement. i really appreciate it. that's what makes my life worthwhile (: AWWW. but seriously i really appreciate it.

as you all probably can tell i'm feeling a lot happier.

i guess handle bad stuff in my life by crying it out and sleeping on it then doing something that makes me feel good. like shopping or pigging out. and it crying works for me cos after crying i suddenly see the whole picture. and everything it means. and its a lot easier to get over whatever it is. so i don't think anyone should be afraid to cry (hear that QUEEN?). but yeah most of the time i feel embarrassed crying in front of others.

Anyway, i went to watch Speedracers with eewen and jas today. The racing parts were pretty good. The movie didnt have a really good storyline and had strange sound effects but in all it was rather good la. Rain's role in the show wasn't exactly as large as expected, seeing as they used him to publicise the show in Singapore. But then again if it had been any larger jas wouldnt have agreed to watch. she was making comments about how gross rain was throughout the movie. haha i'm rather partial to him la. i liked him in full house but thats about it.

after that i went swimming with my sis and my cousin and aunt at SIA sports club. we swam for what, 45 minutes? basically i waded around and swam 2 laps. and we did a few strange water aerobics moves hahahaha. then we ate at big eater (a seafood restaurant) and it has really good crabs. mmm. except i dont know why but i was having toothache. which lasted all the way till now. the only reason i am able to type properly now is cos of panadol. okay i have to stop relying on panadol for aches and pains. but it really helps ): anyway i'm going to see my dentist. definitely. very soon. but i'm going to get scolded. sigh.

okay reminder to self: PUT NEW MOON IN BAG FOR MARGE RIGHT NOW


i really wasn't in the right mood or frame of mind to blod immediately after camp, cos then it would have been biased and negative and unjustified to camp as a whole. i really enjoyed this year's camp yknow. with the exception of the last ten minutes.

well first, we were all freaking out about it cos we invited sir benedict and ma'am louisa who in ma'am louisa's words, made out part a camp 'kind of hellish'. but it really turned out alright. bunk inspection was expected really, and loads better than our part a bunk inspection. cos we smartened up over the past 2 years and actually used wet wipes to painstakingly clean practically every part of the classroom. but we still somehow managed to make 4o plus mistakes. sigh.

halfway through, we started outdoor cooking OF WHICH I WAS THE IC. i briefed the part As and Bs very terribly and uninterestingly, contrary to the briefing i practised so many times beforehand, and made my seatmates listen to over and over again. yes, my non-ncc classmates know how to cook outdoors now. anyway, i told everyone that they had to get everything, including bathing, cooking, eating done by 8. cos that was what we discussed beforehand! but later on tiffy comes and 'they're not supposed to bathe!'. joy. i did such a fantastic job didn't i. i could kill jas but i'm nice (: and later on this causes a part a to learn not to trust platoonmates. sigh. then eewen and i very kindly volunteered our cleaning services to scrub sooty messtins (which part as and bs FORGOT TO COAT TOOTHPASTE ON). then we AARed and continued bunk inspection and i have no idea why but i just kept sliding and sliding further and further down when we were in knockitdown position. actually i always slide when i do push ups or stay in push up position, which is not good because that means i'm doing it wrong. which is probably why i cried a little after that cos i felt responsible for getting our whole part scolded. and which is also probably one of the many reasons why i'm not going. anyway, before this gets even more negative, i shall proceed to happier parts of camp.

we then showered and went to bed. the fans were so loud and deceptive that huiyi and i thought is was RAINING. anyway we had pt next morning but i hardly did half of it cos i left in the middle of it to prepare breakfast. we boiled eggs for the whole company and made saturated milo. hahaha breakfast was fun la. then we had obstacle course which i was the station ic for the everyone-squeeze-on-one-piece-of-newspaper game. i thought (remembered actually) of it okay. huiyi owes me. anyway we had mutuals after that and i was once again letting my nerves get the better of me. i seriously need to stop letting that happen to me. usually when i'm nervous i talk fast and jokingly which you CANNOT do in ncc especially in front of a whole squad. which should be another reason why i'm not going. anyway before the second half did mutuals after lunch, sir benedict gave us 'time for our food to digest'. amanda was like 'how long are we going to digest arh?' huiyi and amanda then launched into an extremely animated and intriguing debate on the length of time the human body needs to fully digest food. haha and i dont know how we got to the topic of being attacked by insects and sir benedict told us about his aunt who rode on a bike and got stung by a bee on the tongue. hahahaha.

after this, we did more drills and i'm really glad we performed well. it felt really GOOD hearing us sychroing. (most of the time at least). i kept screwing up kakanan lurus on the march cos its either thewrong hand goes out or the wrong leg. then we got prac time to perfect that one and i did it correct and i JUMPED in the air la. yes while still marching. shame on me for being too excitable.

we were dismissed soon after cleaning up the area. after a hilarious debrief, sir andrew chia broke the bad news to us. and sad news to me. okay i was expecting it so i dont know why i cried after that. i need more control over my volatile emotions. but i was really sad cos i dont want to stagnate. i really dont. i hope things dont get blown out of proportion.

but thank you jas and eewen and tiffy and huiyi and amanda chan and all other pltnmates. l love my pltnmates no matter what decision i might make at the end of the year. please don't hate me guys. and thank you eenette wong for everything. i'm thankful for someone like you. you're the bestest friend ever and thank you for making it alright. i love you and your huge bar of meiji chocolate!

letting go isn't easy


i'm not exactly in the blogging mood right now. but i need some release.
i shall try to be more discreet as jas and huiyi advised.
i really thought it would be a lot more relaxed after myas and gee, how wrong could i get. its the combination of horrendous results with camps (one of which i most probably won't get to go) and mood swings. i really have nobody to blame but myself. sometimes i think the world would be a better place for everyone if i wasn't around. especially myself. which doesnt make sense as i wouldn't even exist. ohwell.

am tired

am feeling slightly better

am not looking forward to tomorrow. at all.


VISUAL BLOGGING :D
okay i'm going crazy blogging 3 posts at once but heck i won't be in any mood to blog tomorrow after getting results so might as well get it all down first. anyway, just a few really random pictures taken at various timings from my phone.


cheese! from pastamania. huiyi will be able to identify with this :D

the ending bit of a really nice sunset. will take a nicer one faster in future

what nan and i found on top of a dustbin at tangs :) so cute

yesterday, my sis INSISTED on riding the ferris wheel at the new e!hub place at downtowneast. mum and i nicely obliged and we were the lucky last people who got to ride. ohwell. it was pretty boring. i mean, how fun can a four storey high indoor ferris wheel be right? anyway some pics

our carriage

looking down

something random i did with some overdue peas that couldn't be eaten. haha compare and contrast the colour diff between the left pea (inedible) and the right pea (mmmm).

my cousin's arm painting from ORA

my arm painting from ORA

this guy who can do freaky things with a brush, some ink and a piece of paper. it was around bugis. he could also write with both hands and write backwards that sort of things. i cant even write nicely with my right hand.

random bubble tea cover with my star sign. first time i got my own sign okay. i know, pathetic but still.


i have strange telepathy with people

huiyi and i have some strange sms and/or msn telepathy

huiyi says:
HELLO MIRANDA YEOOOO
miranda says:
huiyiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
miranda says:
omg telepathy!
huiyi says:
you werent replying to me ah!
miranda says:
NO!
huiyi says:
GOSHHHH
miranda says:
A LOT OF TIMES ALREADY EH!

yes and there were these few times we smsed like in response to each other like i asked a question and she answers the question but she didnt know i asked the question and we sms each other at the same time. freaky.


then eenette and i have like EMOTIONAL telepathy or something. like there was once during learning journey we both felt really sick in the strange sort of way, like sick but still can carry on walking etc. and we only found out at the end of the day when we called each other to talk. and there was no way the virus or whatever could have spread from her to me or me to her cos we didnt see each other for ages. and we always feel the same things at the same time that sort of thing.

oh well telepathy is cool.


okay. have been neglecting blog for weeks!

its just been so busy after myas. okay shall recount


7 May LAST PAPER then kristie eenette jiaying nat ong and i went out. we walked around for a bit and ended up talking at starbucks. AGAIN. then we went to cine to watch superhero movie. it was super funny and sick and dumb all at the same time. If i watched it any other time than after exams i would probably have thought it was an utter waste of time but it really was super funny. the kind of after-exam movie you just watch and don't use your brain at all. haha. then we went to taka to walk around and nat saw two bunnies which reminded her of the show. HAHA.
BOUNCING BUNNIES. (or are they really simply bouncing? attempt to read the yellow sign please. hm)




8 May Went back to school for ncc training, then went out with frique again, this time we actually wanted to go to mind cafe but change of plans at the last minute. so we ended up roaming orchard road ONCE AGAIN. we ended up in plaza sing. roamed around rather aimlessly, and then WE LOST NAT. like we totally couldn't find her, and we were really worried. turns out her mum called and she had to go down and meet her or something. haha and we thought she got kidnapped. we ate cheesecakes at secret recipe and eenette took SUCH a long time to decide. then we had an interesting conversation about the supernatural that freaked jiaying out. haha. we took a few slightly retarded photos in daiso, and many with the two horses on display outside plaza sing. i miss frique. as usual.

9 May to 10 May operation cleanup whereby we had to clean our school compound. sigh. we ended up taking lots of funny pictures like this:

haha nan looks SQUASHED!

and there was this gigantic spider where we were cleaning outside the staffroom. ew.

AND THEN later on in the day, sleepover with pltnmates. haha we had a movie marathon at jas' house and amanda and huiyi insisted on watching horror movies. the only one we watched in the end was final destination 2. there was this lift scene where a woman got decapitated. head stuck between doors and all. ultimate grossness. then we watched a few other movies and friends season 7, which is hilarious. then we played xbox which i am utterly hopeless at. ugh. dont even talk about it. tiffy and jas managed to keep awake for pretty long and did SOMETHING to us. but tiffy slept LATER ON so ha. and eewen left like super early, and forgot to bring her smelly socks along. haha. it was really fun la but it was my lousiest movie marathon ever. I slept super fast. Bruce Almighty made me sleep D: OHWELL. pltnmates <3

12 May today. career day. it was okay la. better than expected i shall say. but i'm now even more unsure of what i want to do in future. sigh. then we went to cherie's house for cmps and sadly, did not achieve much. but we did some PRETTY productive discussion i think.

and we're results back tomorrow i can't believe they're doing this to us i am dreading tomorrow to the ultimate

okay. firstly, i should not be here blogging. i should be studying. secondly, its chinese paper tomorrow and i can't think of anything to study. thirdly, i have been studying math + bio (yesterday but STILL) + history (without much progress) hence im going to take a SHORT break.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NATHAN & JULIAN
bit late for that but STILL. its not past 12 yet.

anyway, we celebrated at bugis with them yesterday. met pingting at the mrt first, then met the guys at the movie ticket place. on the way, we bought them each a badge, one that says 'i'm gay, are you?' (for nathan) and another with a faceless pig, with the word PIG on its face (for zhu-lian) haha primary school nicknames are never forgotten. and pingting conflicted about buying cos they didnt look nice. but still, bought anyway cos its relevant. haha. then we ate at this ah wang cha can ting place. the food was really good better than i expected. nathan chose this weird drink which came in two bottles and unsuccessfully tried to get someone to share cos it looked, well, unappetising (sorry nathan). julian got this passionfruit peach thing which came in a gigantic bottle. with gigantic straws. and dennis unluckily chose some blueberry cookie thing that tasted gross. so they smartly decided to merge all the drinks together, forming some coconut-bluecoral-passionfruitpeach-blueberry drink. which looked vaguely like watery mud. and apparantly tasted nice. pingting and i do not regret sticking to good old milk tea. then liqi came to pass presents and left in like 15 MINS! i think its really nice of her to come just to pass presents. then we went to watch iron man. which was like this formulaic hero saves damsel in distress movie. but still pretty cool and suspenseful. and pingting who doesnt like VIOLENT SUSPENSEFUL movies covered her ears a lot of the time and kept insisting that the movie leads were going to die. of course, i calmly assured her that if they die, NO MORE MOVIE RIGHT. though i was guilty of hugging my jacket which i do when i watch thrillers. heh. YA LAH I WASN'T COLD NATHAN. then we walked around bugis street and pingting and i bought two t-shirts which we might wear at the next class gathering. haha. then, mrt back home with pingting & julian. pingting's dad very nicely gave me a lift.

1) i miss primary school friends and i HAVEN'T SEEN PINGTING IN A BILLION YEARS (minus yesterday) AND I MISS HER LOADS

2) i gave julian this fake chocolate keychain thing and nathan this fake oreo keychain thing. julian very smartly thought the chocolate was gonna melt until he saw the string. I LAUGH. VERY LOUDLY. nathan sarcastically (but i thought he meant it at first) said he ate it and it tasted funny. WHATEVER LA. i bet he did something dumb and doesn't want to tell me.

3) i like celebrating birthdays.

4) i shall study now